“Whenever something is gained, something is always lost. It’s difficult to live after something like that. What is lost will never return. Important things, irreplaceable things, but what is needed to keep those things is in the firm will packed into one bullet. Man knows, he knows nothing will begin unless he speaks, and that nothing will change, unless he moves.”
I have to start trusting people, I’ve had this problem for so long, and it’s more of a issue then a decision. People make fast and bad choices in their life’s that make them lose sight of what’s really going on in the world and how things plan out. I feel like I’ve seen alot, I’m a realist, but I like stepping outside the box once in a while. Just have to learn how to stay out of things and let people figure it out. It’s a curse to care so much for people, I care more about my friends and family more than my own life. Trust is a vice and it squeezes the life out of me.
I hate this town, I wish I could leave and live in Hawaii, just to go to a place and start fresh and nobody knows my name. I just want to be stress free and happy. I haven’t felt like that in years. I have to stop day dreaming and start figuring out my life, cause I don’t know where I’m going and what I’ll be doing in 10 years. This town, has changed me and now I can see the full picture of what the world is because of this town. Doesn’t matter where I go, it’ll be the same. Just have to deal with it.
I have never been more hurt in my life.